Limbo - "State of Uncertainty" or "How Low Can You Go?"

Are we staying in Benson? Are we moving back to Tucson? Are we moving back into the Bellatrix house? Are we going to rent somewhere else in Tucson while our renters stay in the Bellatrix house? Are we going to keep renting in Mescal? How many licks does it take to get to the Tootsie Roll center of a Tootsie Pop?

All these questions keep swirling around in my head and I don't know which way is up sometimes. It is very hard to keep up morale when there is no end in sight and no prize on the horizon. I had such a tangible goal for so long that now that it is gone I don't know what to look forward to anymore.

I don't know what I'm working towards in the short term. As always, the long term goal is to become like and live with my Heavenly Father and to achieve this with Lesley, my children, and all those that I love and hold dear. That is always clear and perhaps even more clear than just a few months ago. But what gets muddy is what is between here and there. My attention span is too short not to fill that gap with what's right around the corner: General Conference, Thanksgiving, Adrianna's birth, Christmas, etc...

I am aware that now is the time that I need to put my faith in Jesus Christ and allow Him to guide me to my next path, but I struggle with that. I feel the urge to complain and wonder what else could go wrong. I just need to remember that "The ^aSon of Man hath ^bdescended below them all. Art thou greater than he?" D&C 122:8. That though right there will straighten out even the biggest whiner and help put one's troubles into perspective.